It’s not everyday you come across the living definition of an anomaly, but should you be lucky enough to meet such a rarity, I can assure you they will be the furthest thing from boring. To clarify, by anomaly I mean one who deviates from the norm or the expected, who cannot be defined by one label, and who embraces the full breadth of the human experience. This extraordinary being to which I am referring is the erotic artist and Live FAST muse, Natalie Krim.
Prior to meeting and photographing Ms. Krim I was familiar only with her online presence, composed of her highly suggestive drawings interlaced with provocative images of herself. While her physical appearance and initial demeanor might have you guessing that she’d be more reserved and shy, once she steps in front of the camera a new version of herself comes to life right before your eyes. She is a seductress, a chameleon, and an artist in every sense of the word. Though she works both in ink and as a muse, her medium is truly her mind.
Perhaps Natalie’s greatest asset is her willingness to be vulnerable by allowing others to view the physical manifestations of her first-hand experiences and by speaking with complete honesty, shamelessly baring her bruises as symbols of her resilience and her strength. Of course with such public accounts of her innermost personal stories and intimate secrets come boundaries, and as such she may be more cautious of whom she gives her time to, but she has very generously gifted us with some insight into the consciousness of the woman running the show.
LF: You are known for your erotic illustrations. Do you read ‘erotica’ too, or watch any erotic films? Do you have any favorites and/or recommendations?
NK: I do. I have a pretty large collection of vintage erotica and erotic films. As far as authors go I love Anais Nin, but also have stacks of short vintage stories from various writers from1920-1970’s like, “ The Spanking Sisters“, “Painful Pastimes” and “ How a Girl Becomes a Masochist”. There are so many great erotic films! My go to movies are: “The Libertine”, “ Baba Yaga”, and “l’homme qui ment.”
LF: Describe your perfect lingerie set. What does it look like and how does it make you feel when you wear it?
NK: I’ve gone through so many phases of lingerie from vintage soft silks to latex and masks… I’m at a place now where I find the simple white panty the most alluring, there is something so pure, yet suggestive about it. I tend to go from one extreme to another.
LF: Where and what do you draw inspiration from for your work? Do you ever draw from photographs, or does it come straight from your mind?
NK: I take inspiration from my lovers. It could be something they said, or an act we did, even just a small motion they were unaware of. Sometimes if I need to look at a body shape I will look through pictures, but mostly the inspiration comes from shared moments.
LF: What makes you feel sexy?
NK: Honesty, and I like the rush of adventures.
LF: The house we shot in was filled floor to ceiling with gorgeous artwork and I had a lot of fun watching you get excited about every other piece hanging on the walls. It’s clear that you are completely and utterly in love with art, and that you have a vast knowledge of art and art history. Who are some of your favorite artists of all time? Do you have a preferred era of art in history?
NK: Some of my favorites are Toyen, Cy Twombly, Matisse, Kahlo, Sonia Delaunay, Mary Blair, Paul Poiret, and Henry Darger.
LF: Turn ons? Turn offs?
NK: Turn Ons: Hands and guys in sweatpants. Turn offs: lack of empathy and lack of drive.
LF: You mentioned during our shoot that you like “dirty rap music.” Who are your go-to’s?
NK: Right now I like Yung Jake, Travis Scott, Future, Dej Loaf, Fetty Wap, Young Thug… but it changes as often as my moods.
LF: What is your guilty pleasure?
NK: Dolly Parton.
LF: You come from a family of artists and creators. What was your upbringing like? How do you think having artistic relatives shaped you as a person?
NK: My Mom is an artist and growing up pretty much glued to her side, she taught me at a young age how to “see,” to find beauty in all things and placed little to no importance on the materialistic. One of the greatest lessons I learned was from my aunt who would tell me all the time; “only boring people are bored,” the idea of being boring became a huge fear! I think both my mom and my aunt instilled the importance of curiosity. One of my favorite quotes right now is from Jane Fonda. She says, “ It’s much more important to stay interested than to be interesting.”
LF: What was your relationship with your body like as a teenager, and how has it changed since then?
NK: I really struggled with my body image as a teen and suffered from body dysmorphic disorder in high school and cutting in my late teens/ early 20’s. I felt like I wasn’t “good enough”. As I got a little older I made the decision that I just didn’t want to feel that way anymore, I wanted to love myself and decided to get the help I needed. The woman I saw during this time suggested that drawing would give me the same feelings of release as cutting – the act of pressing down on a surface and seeing something emerge; that suggestion was the beginning of my way of expressing myself through artwork and in turn helped my views with body image. The reason I was confident in my decision in being photographed naked or showing the nude body through my images was because I wanted to say to other girls “ hey, I look like this and this is beautiful and your body is beautiful, too.” Our relationships with ourselves are the most important ones we have. It deserves the same attention we would give a playground crush.
LF: The contrast between your art and the person you become in front of the camera versus your public, in-person self is quite striking. Would you consider yourself an exhibitionist? Are there ever moments where your private self and your public self intermingle?
NK: Yes, I would consider myself an exhibitionist. I do have very separate sides of my personality, but each side is a part of me and that is what makes me whole. I am somewhat guarded and choose to show certain sides of myself to certain people. When I trust someone completely then they get all of me; I let them see the dark and the light.
LF: What is something you love about yourself – physically, mentally, or both?
NK: I love that I can trust in myself that no matter what is thrown at me I will be able to learn from it and grow.
LF: How would you define “femininity?”
NK: The ability to be all.
LF: What advice would you give to women and girls learning to love themselves?
NK: I’d tell them they are beautiful in all their faults, insecurities and strengths. I’d tell them to embrace every emotion and to treat themselves with kindness and compassion.
LF: How FAST do you live?
NK: Fast enough, yet slow enough that I don’t trip over myself on the way to the finish line.